"Thankful"

With so many things going on in our city, country, and world it can feel trite and even wrong to list off all the things one is thankful for. Especially when one is a white person living in privilege. Even so...

I've been so grateful for my life this year. Probably more than I ever have. (I realize not many people are saying this in 2020.) Yes, we have a wonderful home and Devin was promoted in his job and life has generally been "easy" for us this year but these are not the things that are bringing my soul peace and thankfulness. 

Maybe it's because the past few years were hard and I'm just feeling the relief that this year hasn't been. I'm definitely reaping the benefits of hard work on both my physical and mental health and I know that is a huge reason for the steadiness I feel right now.

Earlier this year I felt what I can only describe as a "knowing" that the Spirit was calling me to home school my kids. This went against my natural desires and tendencies and even went against what I thought at the time was best for them. But it was a prompting I knew I had to go with and now I'm finding myself with purpose and joy that I know is only from the Lord.

This year I've released control over things that were never in my control to begin with. I have found a new level of freedom in not trying to control any other person, especially the ones I live with.

So I guess that in this season I'm just thankful for growth through the Spirit and another layer of knowing that the path God has for me will always be the one with the most peace.