Anything but Balanced


That's how I would describe myself today.

The day started out wonderful. Gorgeous weather, good breakfast, and a great couple hours with my discipleship group at church. Henrik was being cute and fun. We had lunch, he napped, I got a few things done, and then...then ensued one of the longest, worst afternoons we've had in awhile.

I think we were both either stir crazy or restless or just off. Henrik was driving me crazy and I had zero patience for anything he did. I felt trapped in the world of stay-at-home-motherhood and I'm sure Henrik could tell I wasn't myself which I think threw him off. It was a bad afternoon, we can leave it at that.

It was so bad that I didn't even bother to answer Devin's text when he inquired if things were going any better. They weren't and I just didn't feel like admitting it.

Devin got home and found me just laying on our bed as Henrik jumped over and on top of me. His eyes were big as he walked into the room and (after I vented) he quickly suggested I get out of the house. So he sent me to Target and to pick up our favorite pad thai takeout.

I picked up a couple treats at Target because (this is a side note) I'm so sick of just drinking water and all my favorite beverages are off limits (thanks pregnancy). One of them is pictured below and makes me smile because it's so the opposite of me right now (thank you, hormones). :)

Another side note - cucumber mint?! Finally, a non-fruit flavor!

Okay, I am going somewhere with this, stay with me.

When I got home from my errands, steaming pad thai in hand, I came into a house that had been cleaned up and Devin and Henrik were off at the park. I could have cried. I did actually tear up a little. 

Devin is usually a really great husband, so that's not really what touched me so much. What struck me was that he had shown me so. much. grace. I will be the first to admit I did not handle my bad afternoon gracefully at all. I was pouty and selfish and even tried to get him to leave work and go do something with us (mature, right?). And he easily overlooked my sinful nature and showed me grace and blessed me with an outing I didn't deserve.

I don't deserve a trip to Target alone to buy things I don't need. I don't deserve the ability to pick up take out when I don't want to cook. But Devin showed me Jesus by overlooking what I did or didn't deserve. I'm so thankful for grace and thankful for a husband who knows how to exercise it and mostly for a God who gives grace endlessly.


10 comments:

Sarah said...

Wow, love this honest post. Funny cuz I had a similar afternoon and an amazing hubby who made sure it was a better evening.

Thanks for sharing... Hope tomorrow is better!

Sara Huber said...

Good perspective Em, thanks for sharing. Giving grace liberally is a good trait for a husband (and wife I guess!) to have. Looking forward to seeing you Thursday!!!

Ashley Neuen said...

Aw, so thankful for Godly husbands :)

leah said...

Oh girl...I love your honesty. I can totally relate to afternoons like that (except minus the kid and plus the challenges of working from home) Thankful for gracious husbands and a gracious God! Love you!

Ashton said...

This is great. Completely understand these emotions and am SO thankful for awesome guys that show us Christ every day when we least deserve it. Give Devin a high five for me.:)

L, Ann and boys said...

The end of this post is just perfect. Add a high five for Devin from me too. :D And I may be an outlier but, I think having six kids has been more settled and balanced feeling than just having Noah. Not that Noah and I weren't a great tag team...but ...it's kind of a hard stage. :)

Linda said...

Oh Em...Bless you for your honesty and bless Devin for loving you so well.
I agree with what Andria said that sometimes one can seem harder than several...

Amber Rufener said...

Love this post!

Christen Leigh said...

Aw I'm so thankful you could go out! And go Devin for being such an example of grace--Chad is always very full of grace towards me when I don't deserve it, too! Very humbling! :) hope you're aging a good weekend!

simplethankfulradical said...

Oh sister, I hear ya and feel ya. So thankful to God for the husband He blessed you with. He's so good to us, isn't He?!