On Miscarriages and Turning 26

Today is my 26th birthday. It feels like a bit of a insignificant birthday. Nothing special about 26, right? I've decided I really don't mind teetering on the edge of my late twenties. For now, being a year older feels just fine. Really, I should be entering late twenties...I'm married with a child and it seems right that I'd be well past 'college age'.

It's been a bit of a weird week. I had a miscarriage during Henrik's first birthday party, which seemed like very ironic timing. Needless to say with the raging hormones and pondering how my baby boy could be one, it was a bit of an emotional day.

We weren't planning to get pregnant, and since we were supposedly doing everything "right" it was  perplexing how it was even possible (I've decided we just aren't going to be the type of people that plan pregnancies).

Initially, I felt excited about another little W baby this Fall, but the day or two before the miscarriage I started to feel really unsettled about being pregnant with all the other changes we have this year (Devin being away for awhile, career switch, etc). Maybe God was preparing my heart.

All I can really say is I feel so peaceful. The phrase that keeps coming to mind is that this is God's best for us right now and I can honestly say I believe that (not that there won't be times I feel sad). I'm also very thankful it happened so early on and not several weeks from now.

So for now, I'm enjoying the gift of extra time to focus just on Henrik and Devin and enjoy this new stage of not working.




Yesterday Henrik and I took lunch to Devin at work. Henrik charmed Devin's co-workers as usual. Then he took his first steps into the arms of Devin's uncle who he barely knows but apparently instantly liked. Of course I can't get him to do any walking today.

Today I'm thankful for sunshine on my birthday and a date tonight with Devin Blaine! Oh and I just booked a flight for Henrik and I to go to Florida in March, which is definitely a boost to winter morale!

8 comments:

Sarah said...

So sorry to hear about your miscarriage. Thanks for sharing....

smw said...

happy birthday! I can imagine being quite emotional with these events, but it's an awesome testimony of how peaceful you feel. i'll pray it continues!

Molly said...

Love the testimony of peacefulness as well...

teresa said...

memorable, with so many emotions. will remember you with prayer.

Christen Leigh said...

This winter is definitely the one to FLEE Indiana and run into the loving arms of the sunshine state! ;) So glad you can go!

Love you, friend. Thankful for the peace you've felt and praying that your peace holds strong in a weird and hard time. :/

Sandra said...

Sorry to hear about your miscarriage but so glad you have a sweet peace!! Ahhh Florida. Sunshine state it is called but don't let that fool you. We saw the sun 4 hours in a week. But good news is that you are going in March and well....it should be much better then;). Enjoy!!!!

leah said...

i'm green with envy that you get to go to FL! :)

thankful that you've come through this odd week with His wonderful comfort & peace. love you friend! :)

L, Ann and boys said...

Awww...Emily. I'm sorry. Peace for the rest of the week and happy birthday. 26 looks good on you. ;)