over the past few weeks i've been mourning the loss/change of friendships. a couple in particular. friends i felt connected with the second we met. the ones you just look at, and you know you like them.
a lot of times i feel like there was a distinct line between the friends of my pre-Christ life and the friends that are in my life now. however, there were a few who fell in between...the ones i probably think of the most. pray for the most. hurt for them the most and miss them the most. miss them so much it hurts.
the friends that may never know just how much i love them.
there seems to be a few people that it is just impossible for me to convey how i feel about them. how i would do anything in the world for them.
telling someone that is easier said than done...i know it doesn't seem like it should be...but it is.
i have learned that some relationships aren't up to me. there are some relationships that i don't have control over...and trust me, i like to have control.
but after questioning for awhile, i always come to the conlusion that i will be okay. it may keep hurting. i might keep bursting into tears in public places over these friends.
but i'll be okay because God promises me that He has control of everything. even if i don't.
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Oh how we all long for control! I love your perspective and your sincere love for people in your life.
I hope you are having a superb week!
Also, I just realized that movie spells pajamas "pyjamas".... interesting. Good movie, though! :)
Thanks for sharing em. These relationships and feelings aren't accidental...even today God will use your prayers and love to accomplish His purposes in both you and them. love ya
i love you my dear.
God has given you a beautiful heart.
i love your love. ;)
missin you again.
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