ahh...life. it never ceases to amaze me. word to the wise: if you are getting 'comfortable' with where you are at physically or spiritually...beware. i'm not sure if really much more could be going on in our family. planning betsy's wedding, sending nate&sara off to kenya, preparing to send molly&jarod off to gateway woods in may, and kevin&laura are going to be changing up their life as well (not sure if i have clearance to blog about that yet, so i'll hold off). of course these are all good things, i can't say anything negative about the changes in our family because everyone is following God's direction for their lives and serving him. however, if i choose to view all of this in a selfish way...negative feelings start to develop pretty darn fast. like..why do i have to get to know someone new and let them in our family? why is my sister and best friend leaving? she's supposed to be the one who lives close to mom and dad and is always around when i go home. she's supposed to be the stable one with a semi-uneventful life who always has time to sit around and listen to me. :) then there's my life. i told mom and dad i would try and keep my life pretty low key for awhile. and on the outside i am. no major changes to report and none are on the way...however...spiritually i feel like the past month has been a rollercoaster. but i guess it can only be a good thing because i'm growing (even though it's been a bit painful) and learning so much about the mercy and grace of God. i am so thankful that Jesus loves me so much that he takes the time to stop me in my tracks to bring me back to him when i start to wander off.
so i'm not too sure the point of this post beyond getting out some morning thoughts. i would also like to say thanks to a special friend of mine. leah, thank you for being so kind and understanding and willing to listen to me. i'm not sure what you ever get out of our friendship but you mean so much to me! hope everyone has a great tuesday...